Ten “Quirks” I Carry Daily.

  1. If the laundry is done drying it NEEDS to be folded right then and there.
  2. My fridge has to be cleaned every Sunday… (at least).
  3. Hair before makeup. Always.
  4. Dishwasher unloaded as follows: (NO EXCEPTIONS)
    – cutlery
    -wine glasses / beer glasses
    – regular cups
    – coffee cups
    -sippy cups
  5. Before I leave for a trip, the house needs a deep clean.
  6. The dishwasher filter needs to be cleaned / rinsed before every use.
  7. A chapstick must be carried with me at all times – including a trip to the bathroom.
  8. There. Is . A. Bucket. Or. Basket. For. Anything. And. Everything.
  9. If I haven’t had at least 3 cups of coffee, I’m not a human being.
  10. The simplest decision (such as which drawer should the scissors go in) – takes at least a couple of hours.

Don’t tell me to CALM DOWN. A Sarcastic Reply.

Anxiety has always been a part of who I am. Although for the last eight years it has really creeped in hard. It’s so hard to explain to others what I am feeling and WHY I am feeling it. To be completely honest I actually get anxiety thinking about explaining it to people. So instead here are the four statements/questions I get most & what I’m usually thinking when I hear them.

“Don’t worry about it”. 
Ohhhhhhhhh really? Don’t worry about it?  If only I thought of that. I’m obviously worrying about it because I just FEEL like it. Thinking about things that may or may not happen is suuuuuuuuuper fun for me.

“Take a deep breath”.
This one is two-fold. Yes – deep breathing helps me but you telling me to just stop and take a deep breath isn’t really productive. I actually have to go to a dark, quiet and calming space before the deep breathing will actually work – so just don’t tell me how to breath k?

“Have you taken your meds?”
First of all – thanks for reminding me that I’m medicated as if I didn’t know. Second of all – yes I’ve taken them. Every morning for the last 8 years – thanks so much!

“Calm Down”

Wait, what? This is an option? If only I knew that 8 years ago…I would have never allowed myself to get worked up about anything in the first place.  Switch flipped, I’m okay now – absolutely nothing to worry about.